Artist : Vanessa Olivarez
Exhibition: Don’t Be Careful, Be Gentle
Media: Film, Acrylic Glass, Robotics
Gallery: CSULB School of Art Galleries
Website: www. Tokioni.com
Instagram: @ Tokioni
About the Artist
Vanessa Olivarez is a senior at CSULB and is pursuing a BFA in Scuplture . She has a website, which is listed above. It contains her art, which can be bought.
Upon walking into the gallery exhibit, I was bathed in a pink light with soothing music. There were two projectors playing two videos one after the other. The videos were on opposite sides of the room. In the middle of the room was an acrylic seesaw. It would teeter toter from one side to the other. There was also a small tv in the corner of the room behind an acrylic stair case and it was displaying one video.
The various film pieces in the exhibit featured the artist and where everyday situations were filmed. One of the films was taken during the artist’s trip to New York. The films displayed a feeling of loneliness and simultaneously wanting to fit in and be wanted/ accepted.
The seesaw was a symbol of the constant shifting between wanting to be with oneself and as well as to be with others.The seesaw tilted like a metronome, moving at a beat that was not dictated by the films. It swayed into three different positions; left tilt, level and right tilt.
Synthesis/ My Experience
When I was viewing this exhibition, I connected with the artist and what she clearly stated in her statement. I was experiencing the emotion of loneliness, but every time a classmate walked in, I wanted to connect with them and speak about the exhibit, but at the same time I also didn’t. I wanted to absorb the exhibit and the way it made me feel all by myself. I probably don’t make and sense, but to myself, it makes perfect sense. We all want to fit in, but we also want to stand out. In the end, the exhibit reminded me of a *Japanese saying:
“We all have three faces. The first face we show to the world, the second face we show to our family and friends, and the third face we never show at all. For the third face is the truest reflection of oneself.”
*I do not know if it actually truly a Japanese saying, when looking it up to verify, I recieved various conflicting posts.